Thursday, February 12, 2009
Ya I know, I have not been on here in a while. I have been working alot. I have been thinking alot too. I think my faith is not as great as everyone elses. I am not strong, but weak. I am second guessing everything knowing everything I know. Evaluating my life, my marraige, every aspect of it. What is the point of LIFE? I just don't get it. What is MARRAIGE? Why do guys act the way they act? Why does my son say he doesn't like me unless I am playing video games with him? So many whys...... Why has he not given up? Our kids? Is that why? Is he in for the long hall? When my kids are all grown will he still be with me? Our dreams we have built together all of these years, will they vanish one day? Everything about my life revolves around him and our children. Everything about me is because of them. Every concious decision I make is about them. Why do I feel like it is not the same for him? With him I feel our life together revolves around him and how he feels and what he wants, and if life doesn't go the way he wants me and the kids will pay. We will pay with being ignored, cursed at, hollered at, how long is enough? Will this pain ever end? Will things ever be better with him? Why is it that the only way things are okay is if I do what he tells me to do? I want so bad to basically say kiss off, we don't need your abuse anymore. I am scared though. How to live life without him. How to function with him gone. I need to trust in only God and get my life back on track with him, where do I begin.
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Oh Lynda, I hurt for you. I will be praying for the Lord's gentle, healing touch in your life, in your lives. Please don't give up, the Lord is there, and His love is always the same, no matter what. We're praying for you.
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Rebekah
Thank you Rebekah, I appreciate that.
ReplyDeletehey sis,I know that I don't know much about marriage except what dad,mom,you,ryan ,and the Bible has taught me,but I did read the bible,and have found that if we love the Lord,stay in our Bible's and let God work through us,and take it one piece at a time,we will be rewarded by God.Jesus will give you security,not anything else sis.Like I said I don't know too much about relationships between women and men,but I do know that everyone struggles,and that it is vital for us to be reading our bibles not just during bad times,but good times too.
ReplyDeleteThe Bible says"Take therefore no thought for the morrow,for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself"Matt.27:34
and Matt.27:31,32Take therefore no thought saying:What shall we eat,or what shall we drink,or wherewithall shall we be clothed,for after all these things do the gentiles seek:)
For your heavenly father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
Sis,Jesus holds you,ryan,k.k,maddy,lil ryan,and brad in his hands ,and he will BLESS abundantly if you follow his Word,I love you so much,you are such a blessing sis!!!
Love Loi
I thought that security was for everyone, I am just having a hard time understanding why good Christian people hurt their loved ones so bad.
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