I can't believe it has been close to a year since I have been on here. So much has gone on. Last I posted that we were moving and well here we are moving again....... This month is a special month our oldest daughter Kaylena will be turning 14 on the 14th and starting her first year in high school sheesh time flys, and our youngest boy Bradley will be turning 7 on the 13th. Happy Birthday ya lil monsters. I love you guys

moving

Well everything got done yesterday, even that much needed talk to my friend.
Been up since 2:28 tossin and turnin about the move.
There are many things that need to be fixed in the house, so we are a little stressed about it.
Today I get to sit over there and wait for all the utility people to come to set everything up.
I wanted to mop and stuff and the water is off so that kinda stinks, but hopefully they will turn it on by tomorrow.
So our house may not be a big fancy new house, but this home is perfect for us and our family, we are so blessed to have found this house. We really hope to eventually buy it, and do what we want with it.
So overall I'm really excited and we can't wait to get in and settled and make it our own.

Go Go Go

Busy day ahead.
Laundry in the process of being done.
Kids getting ready for school as we speak.
Take em to school.
Come home continue to wash, dry and put away everyone's laundry.
Go to the school and cover for noon supervisor today.
Come home for a breather for about 20 minutes then get back to the school for work at the after school program.
Going to try to get our results down to 15% today.
We are at 20% right now so it shouldn't be to hard.
Movie this week, hmm gotta pick one out. If it's out I will do How To Train a Dragon.



Back to my daily activities

After work hitch a ride with my best bud Soara to the kids soccer practices.
KK 6pm, Brad 6pm, and Maddie Jade 8pm.
Oh ya and Big Ryan has a double header tonight one at 6:45pm and one at 9:00pm
Then rush kids home to put in bed while Ryan and I take our electronics and what not to have the techs set everything up tomorrow, yay electricity.

That's my day, all planned out.

betrayal

you totally disregarded my plea.
you ignored my request.
you know what though, this isn't the end.
you have to answer to a higher calling.
What you did was wrong!
a person in your position should never do what you did, ever.
i thought we were friends?
you threw that away.
i'll do my part.
your back i won't have.
i lied for you once, that won't happen again.

Moving Forward

no point in looking back. no point in harboring frustration against those who hurt you, chances are it was unintentional.

balance......I'm trying to find that right now.
I'm trying to be the person God wants me to be.

talking is one thing, the actions of that talk are what count.

I hope your watching so you see those actions.....

today is a new day, my eyes burn from the tears that have been falling, my heart aches from the pain that was caused.

don't look back...... don't look back!!

causes nothing but heart ache and regret for ever putting my faith in you.

lil updates

Well I haven't been on here in a long time. Lot's have happened, lots have changed. Ryan and I passed our 11 year anniversary woo hoo. And on that day we put a deposit down on a house to lease. It is time for us to leave this home he has lived in so long. Born and raised in this home with his gramma. I honestly think living here with her and his brother has been a test for our marriage for sure. Living with family soooo does not work. To many opinions. So we get the keys this Wednesday and we are so very excited to start moving stuff in on Friday. We should be completely done by Sunday, well at least with the stuff on the inside of the house..... gramma is sad but at least we aren't moving that far away. Kids will stay in the same school, and now they actually get to ride the bus, which excites them. It's the littlest things like riding a bus that excites my kids lol.

This weekend was a tough one. We had to work on Madisons Science fair project. Brandon came up to help us with it. We managed to make an awesome project. Her board looks great, it is black and stands out well.
Right now we are going through some major financial problems. I am so afraid of my marriage failing because of it. My husband is becoming more withdrawn and very angry all of the time. Myself and my kiddos feel like we can do nothing right, and boy if we do make any mistakes boy get out of the way. He is hoppin mad. I am just praying that we can get through this in one piece. Right now I am looking into what it would take for my kids and me to take a trip to Texas to visit my madre. Goodness I just want to get away from the nonsense for a while and clear my head.
Keep praying,
lynda